.For Juliet.

Yes thats right these two are about to be Parents (this friday.) That is my brother Matthew, and sister- in law Jessica! They are having a little girl who is already 7lbs 11 ounces, and is in the top 5 percentile for longest baby. HAHA. Her name is going to be Juliet Miller. I am kind of nervous about this new title of "Aunt," as they have decided they want her to call me Auntie Lola because Lauren will be too hard for her to catch on to at first. Since I am the closest to them this means babysitting constantly. I am totally ok with that too! I am hoping that I will be a good aunt, and that I can be a role model for this little one seeing as I am not sure that I want children of my own someday. I feel some strange sense of overwhelming love for this child already, and I desperatly need to feel that right now. I worry about certain things that will come along with this whole new responsibility. I am overcome with so much right now in my life, that I am unsure how to handle happiness right now. That sounds horrible, but I am hoping that I can snap out of it just for the weekend while my parents are here so they don't freak out about me being a bum right now (emotion wise.) So I will put on my smile for them and fake it. The harsh reality is they know I am not doing ok, and they worry anyways even if I put on a front for them. That is what I truly lvoe about myfamily they support me in the right ways, to where they know I need space, and I am stressed about everything going on in my life. At times I wish they were closer, but I realize that I have grown so much in these past 5 years, I would not trade that "life growth," for anything. SO here is to you Ju Ju Bee (that is my little pet name for my niece) I can't wait to meet you little one! Matthew and Jessica are going to teach you spanish when you are growing up, so in honoring that decision I learned a spanish lullaby to sing to you while I rock you to sleep. I love you little one, and look forward to watching you grow! Love, Auntie Lola!