.Fixing Up Firenze.

Fixing up my bike for the Summertime. Firenze GL5000, my mom gave it to me about 4 years ago, she got it when she was about 18 and passed it on to me. I have named the bike Kay after my moms middle name. Enjoy the video! Music: "Breathe"- Telepopmusik

.Little Juliet (My Niece).

.Secret Look Into The Name Given To Me.

Secret Universe Names “The dynamic interplay of names and destiny” written by Roy Feinson

Both the LRN names and personalities they represent complex in their construction. The letter R represents the youthfully romantic qualities found in the words ripe, reproductive, racy, rapture and randy, but the letter N is the authoritative letter of negativity (not, not, ever, naught, and nada) and suggests a measure cynicism and conservatism. The letter L, on the other hand, is the definitive symbol of love, laughter, life and learning and bespeaks an individual with an uncommon emotional intelligence. All told, the LRN combination suggests the feeling of a romance not quite realized in the words lovelorn, alluring, forlorn, flowering and leering. Although only about a quarter of a million people in the U.S. bear a LRN name (of which Lorraine and Lauren comprise the vast majority), this mainly feminine root is currently enjoying an extraordinary surge of popularity.

These amenable people may appear to be demure and submissive, but they’re held up by a backbone of pure titanium. And if LRN, are capable of summoning up an impressive tantrum from time to time its usually just to make a point. The downside to having people think that you’re an innocent is that it’s somewhat inconvenient to grow up. So many people are willing to shield them from harm that their maturation is often compromised. Perhaps this is why so many LRN’s retain their childish outlooks well into adulthood. Having few insecurities, LRNs have little need to dominate others. Soft-spoken and exuding the gentle self-confidence of alpha males or females, they are responsible workers who flourish in positions of authority and have no problem with ceding control to someone else. Exceptionally intelligent, they are drawn to careers in science, medicine or law, but will readily adapt to any job that provides sufficient intellectual stimulation. If you’re ever going to encounter the LRN’s inclination for pickiness, it’s going to be in the workplace. A healthy work environment is critical to their mental well-being and productivity: desks must be shiny, computers fast, and pencils and coworkers sharp.

LRNs’ cool reserve can be off-putting and—because many people believe them to be too self-sufficient- LRN’s must exert themselves to make friends. But once they’ve sown their seeds in their primary relationships, their roots grow strong and deep. LRNs make for low-maintenance marriage partners who aren’t into flashy demonstrations of love. All they need is a little nourishment and the occasional dash of spice.

.For Juliet.

Yes thats right these two are about to be Parents (this friday.) That is my brother Matthew, and sister- in law Jessica! They are having a little girl who is already 7lbs 11 ounces, and is in the top 5 percentile for longest baby. HAHA. Her name is going to be Juliet Miller. I am kind of nervous about this new title of "Aunt," as they have decided they want her to call me Auntie Lola because Lauren will be too hard for her to catch on to at first. Since I am the closest to them this means babysitting constantly. I am totally ok with that too! I am hoping that I will be a good aunt, and that I can be a role model for this little one seeing as I am not sure that I want children of my own someday. I feel some strange sense of overwhelming love for this child already, and I desperatly need to feel that right now. I worry about certain things that will come along with this whole new responsibility. I am overcome with so much right now in my life, that I am unsure how to handle happiness right now. That sounds horrible, but I am hoping that I can snap out of it just for the weekend while my parents are here so they don't freak out about me being a bum right now (emotion wise.) So I will put on my smile for them and fake it. The harsh reality is they know I am not doing ok, and they worry anyways even if I put on a front for them. That is what I truly lvoe about myfamily they support me in the right ways, to where they know I need space, and I am stressed about everything going on in my life. At times I wish they were closer, but I realize that I have grown so much in these past 5 years, I would not trade that "life growth," for anything. SO here is to you Ju Ju Bee (that is my little pet name for my niece) I can't wait to meet you little one! Matthew and Jessica are going to teach you spanish when you are growing up, so in honoring that decision I learned a spanish lullaby to sing to you while I rock you to sleep. I love you little one, and look forward to watching you grow! Love, Auntie Lola!

.Design, Design, Design.

.Just One Morning.

.Counting Up My Demons.

I find some strange comfort in the fact that someone somewhere has to be feeling the way I do right now. That may be a horrible way of looking at it, because if I could save anyone from feeling this I would. The pains of not falling asleep, trying to eat yet nothing is good enough, trying to push forward when you feel motionless, stuck, lonely, teary, thoughtful with thoughts that seem so blurry, upset, horrified, and mostly heartbroken. Somehow nothing is good enough, not even the words from loved ones (family).