.I Hope That I Will Never Let You Down.

I know that there's a difference between slight of hand, and giving everything you have.

.First Letter of Thanks.

Ever since I was a kid there was this constant drive in me to succeed. It would have never been possible without those around me. Especially my family, but also people who have graced my life with their presence. Thank you to my oldest brother Matt for telling me he thought I was good enough to succeed in Advertising, which is what I then went and majored in at college. To my brother Michael you are the funniest guy I know, you have a heart of gold, and I am so happy to call you and Matthew two of my best friends. Mom & Dad you are supportive, loving, sarcastic, good hearted, giving, passionate people. Dad have such a servants heart and even when people are not looking and you get no recognition for the random acts of kindness you keep doing them daily! Mom you are AMAZING! You taught me how to cook for the first time, how to be a young little lady that I have grown up to be, you are one of the most hospitable people out there. To my amazing grandfathers you were two strong men with gifts in all areas of life, anything you set out to do you did with dignity, grace, and always succeeded. To my grandmothers, you are bar none the most sassy women I have ever met, thank you I got it from you. Some may think it is a curse, I say it is a blessing! HAH! As for my Richmonders, you are some crazy SOB's, and you are constantly there for me even though we are miles apart. Kelley, Betsy, & Sarah, you are the greatest girls and each have your own hand in my life in different areas, I know I can always count on you thank you. Kelley you always supported my photography passion, and even made that book for me which I still have to this day! Betsy you constantly amaze me with your timing of phone calls always calling me when somehow I am going through the roughest and most low points in my life. Sarah you are the big sister I never had. Abby Foster you have seen it all girl, you have been around through my lowest of lows. We have been through our own hardships, and somehow been able to share two completely different / difficult experiences, and help each other through it! Thank you Thank you Thank you for all of the late phone calls you have listened to me vent, cry, and supporting me no matter what. You are an amazing woman and I am so proud of where you are going keep it up girl! I can't wait to see you in August! There are so many more people I want to thank, but for some reason today I wanted to thank these specifics. You have loved me when I was unlovable, stuck by my side when I was being an asshole or sassy to no end! You have made me laugh, and many of you have held me when I cried. You have shown me what true friendship, and family mean. I would not be where I am today without all of your support, and guidance. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. Thank you.

.Wake Up.

Mornings have become such a huge part of my life lately. I have an internal clock that Likes to wake me up around 7:30 to 8 a.m. At first I could not figure out why I was waking up this early, then I realized stop complaining, morning is one of the greatest times to self reflect, get situated, get motivated, catch up on what's happening at night. Although some mornings more difficult then others, by that I mean bad dreams, or unsolved emotions which drag on in late hours from the night before, or longings of familiar things. I am taking my new move and motivating myself to keep going to not let the thoughts of everyday ruin my chances of greatness. I am thankful to everyone, and everything that has been given to me throughout these past few months. Some people have effected me in ways they will never know, and in my morning hours I think of them, they motivate me, inspire me, yet at the end of the day I know this needs to come from within. I am seeing these changes happening rapidly, as I am on my own. Recently I have been spending my morning hours reading, I am reading 2 books right now. The first one is called "Lucifer's Flood" by Linda Rios Brook. The Second one is one I have read before called "Nicomachean Ethics" by Aristotle  this book is about virtue and moral character. Aristotle wrote it for his son, and although sometimes it is hard to understand I like to do my research on why he thought these ways. Lately I have been drinking tea instead of coffee, orange juice instead of milk, eggs & yogurt instead of cereal, silence in the morning instead of music. These slight changes may not last long because in life change is inevitable. I am enjoying my time in Nashville, some mornings I wake up and wonder where am I. Feelings of loneliness set in occasionally, yet I brush them off, realizing in due time I will make way. Sometimes I think of days (certain ones) I hold them close to my heart, looking on them with the utmost love and respect. Without those days it would have never led me here. Morning time is a good time you should try it. Hell if you are ever in Nashville, come have a cup of tea enjoy my porch, read some books, listen to the bird mix tape that graces my window every morning, afternoon, and night. That is enough for now. I am headed back to my porch for some reading, I have a huge interview today at 12! Need to get prepared!